I WON'T GIVE UP

Yesterday I got that little daily verse below from my calendar at work and it made me think of Laci who is having problems with our immigrations office but also for myself.

God wants to use you - stumbling and all. But He won't do so if you refuse to get up. (Charles Swindoll)

Then Jesus said to him, "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk". John 5-8

I have been at my adoption journey since 2006 (without not wanting to get into further details at the moment) and now 3 x I have heard, 2x just lately, maybe it's you wanting to adopt and you are not letting God lead the way. God has always been in this journey all the way even though I don't express myself as some do about how God is leading them. When everyone has told me don't do it anymore, I kept going and going and I will keep going until my CHOSEN children come home. As long as my husband has my back I am fine because I already have God's back.

When I found the agency I am with right now, I kept saying, why haven't I found them back in 2006 I would have had children home by now. The reason was obvious. It was not my time yet because God wanted me to learn patience and suffer during this process. And have I suffered.

I have always wanted to adopt sibling groups but the children that were referred where always single children. So when I saw my little girl on the video I knew I wanted her badly. But she was alone, no sibs. It's is impossible for me to adopt non sib groups with my agency that are not related except if they are under 5.

There was this little boy that I loved on the video. He was my absolute fav. But the list said that he was already placed! So I never bothered to inquire. Two nights before the social worker came to our house I was going back and forth with Erin looking at a few pics. Suddenly, I see his name on her list. I kept telling Erin, can't be, he is taken, the list says "Placed". She says he is not but let me double check with the office tomorrow. Come to find out that the office made a mistake (yipiee) by putting "placed" on a piece of paper that goes with the video.

God is so good, so sweet, so amazing, and he blows me away every single day with the things he does in my life and leads me the way. That little guy, I know, was set aside for me. So my little girl will bring home a brother after all and she doesn't have to be lonely.

More to come on my children very soon. Just have been swamped trying to get their welcome bag together and other things.